Guys, can we talk about boobs for a hot second?
Here, look, I’ve included some visuals. Do I have your attention? Good. Let’s get down to business.
I really hate my boobs, if I were to write a letter to my boobs, it would probably be at least 6 pages long (front and back) and it would be very unkind and use harsh feeling statements such as ‘when ____ happens, you make me feel very ______” And I HATE that I hate them. I really want to feel empowered by my curves and woman-ness but at the end of the day, I just don’t. They are so much more of a bummer than they are worth.
First of all, it makes people treat you differently.
I feel like it instantly makes males assume I am a highly sexual being (which I may or may not be, but my cup size does not dictate that.) Also theres the whole eye contact issue, I even find females staring directly into my cleavage. I guess its distracting? And for some reason it makes people feel like they are totally allowed to talk about and/or touch your body. I cannot tell you how many times people I barely know have felt like it was okay to touch my boobs in a joking way, or openly discuss them. Someone once even made a joke about me being more likely to have breast cancer because I had big boobs. Like, that ACTUALLY happened.
Secondly, they highly dictate the wardrobe choices I make.
I have gone to painstaking lengths to make sure I don’t have cleavage/do not appear to be showing them off (SO many layers.) Not because I care, but because other people REALLY seem to care. For some reason Keira Knightly can expose her entire sternum and its acceptable, but if I have an inch of cleavage showing I’m inappropriate, and you can bet your ass that someone will tell me they think so. I’ve shed tears numerous times because of this particular issue, boob shaming is literally the worst and it makes me sad if I think too hard about the societal implications of it.
And the hardest part about all of it, is that in all of my weightloss they have remained relatively unchanged. Like everything shrunk and they just kinda stayed. I got my measurements taken today for the first time in about 30 lbs and it was the biggest bummer ever. I went from an annoying bra size when I started (36DD) to an even more difficult to find bra size (34DD) to what I’m going to assume is a made up bra size and will not ever actually exist (32DDD.)
I guess what I’m kind of hoping with this extremely long tl;dr rant is that someone, somewhere, out there has some similar problems and can point me in the direction of a bra source, or maybe a support group for small ribcaged/large cup sized women, because I’m strugglin here. Come on ladies, help a sister out.
Big Boob Problems. There should be a tag
